“Lonely In Church”

“Lonely In Church”

(A true story…1988)

There is a prayer meeting tonight and I’m going to church, I have to try and end my search

To find you Lord my heart is broke, I need to meet some other folk

My heart is so broken not sure if I should, I don’t want to sit around and brood

I’m reaching for you I need you so, please Lord Help me if I should go

I will walk in the room as quiet as can be, don’t want to draw attention you see

I will sit at the end no-one will know, the pain that I feel and don’t want to show

They all have a prayer I look around; I’m feeling quite nervous I hear no sound

People are mumbling not sure what’s going on, I’m really wishing now that I was gone

The meeting is over I’m sitting alone, feeling lonely all forlorn

They’re chatting and talking amongst themselves, feeling like I fell off a shelf

No-one said hi or even goodbye, I feel like I just want to cry

They sound so spiritual with each other, but looking at me they didn’t even bother

I’m feeling worse than when I came in, I didn’t even get a grin

Heading out the door I’m feeling down they didn’t know I was around

Walking up the aisle of the church, this is the end of my search

The tears come rolling down my face; I leave the church in disgrace

I cannot see my eyes are blurred now I’m feeling just like a nerd

Why God why oh can’t you see, the hurt that’s churning inside of me

With all that mumbling and all that prayer why does no-one really care?

On the outside they look so right but on the inside they’ve lost their sight

They didn’t know that you were there, did they really look to care

Of a sinner coming in that door spiritual clothes is all they wore

I’m glad you care Lord more than the others

They only love each other those sisters and brothers

I’m heading home now to take my life I’ve had enough of all this strife

Can’t take no-more my heart is broke I’ve had enough it’s just a joke

Does anyone care just tell me Lord show me somewhere in your word

I’ve stretched myself to it’s length I’m feeling tired I have no strength

Give me an answer and if you do, I will promise to always follow you

Please mend my heart it’s broken in two I honestly don’t know what to do

Written by Chris Turner

2012